My name is Jeremy Gillitzer and I am a 34 year old male who has struggled with a serious eating disorder for 23 years. I have been in and out of treatment facilities throughout the United States during most of my adolescence and young adulthood. The length of these hospitalizations ranged in length from 3 months to as long as 18 months. Needless to say, I didn't have a very fun adolescence.
When I was about 21, I came out of the closet as a gay male and my eating disorder slowly seemed to dissipate. I no longer felt as strong of an urge to binge and purge all day. I slowly stopped this behavior, began to gain weight, and met new friends. This reprieve from the eating disorder lasted about 5 years. I really thought I would never have to deal with this nightmare again. However, this behavior began again and pretty much lasted until the present.
Currently, I am struggling with binging and purging on ice cream several times per day (I go through a gallon per day), compulsively exercising sometimes for up to five hours per day, depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and body dysmorphia. I sound like a great date, huh? Not to be a buzz kill, but this is the reality of my life. Lately, I have been feeling like I don't care if I live or die.
I started this blog because I want to find other males who struggle with similar issues. I know there are other men who struggle with eating disorders, but they are very reluctant to admit this because of society's perception that this is a "woman's" disease. Another reason for this blog is because I am in the process of writing a book about my experiences as male struggling with an eating disorder. Most of the book will include my experiences in the treatment facilities since I spent an inordinate amount of time in them. The book will also include details about my pathetic daily routine of literally eating and throwing up all day from dawn to dusk, my food hoarding problem that resulted in my evcition from my apartment on two occasions,and my coming out as a gay man.
I look forward to hearing from all of you soon.